Church-less

It will nearly be a year since I’ve gone to church. Somehow I can’t bring myself to go to church. I do believe in God, don’t get me wrong. I believe that God lives within each of us. I try to practice the Golden Rule. It sums up the Holy Bible for me. I believe in the goodness of others. Will I burn in hell if I do not go to church?

One evening, as I was on my way to the office and walking the distance from the MRT Station, I pondered on the reason. I tried to think back to the day that I last heard mass. What was it that made me not want to go back. Was it the priest? Was it his sermon? Was it the church?

Guess what, it was the church. Our church was remodeled. From wooden tables, wooded fixtures and backdrops, wooden crucifixes, and simple designs, they changed it to marbles and golden plated designs. The big crucifix in the middle of the platform now has golden edges. The 2 partitions at both sides to the platform are now made or marble. Marble arches with golden designs. It now shouts of wealth and insincerity.

Where did they get the money to remodel the church? The old theme was doing just fine! In fact I loved the old theme. The church was not falling into pieces, what was the use of renovating? Did they use our donations for remodeling? Regardless if the money came from our donations they could have just given the money to the poor or to charity.

My local Church spoke of sharing, of simplicity, of giving to the poor, but what do they have? Gold trimmings and marbles. I don’t know why I felt bad. I still feel bad everytime I think about it. Like catching your teacher cheating. How dare they not practice what they literally preach.

Maybe I can organize some sort of event. People can get to see marbles and gold trimmings being shoved up their (you know who they are) a$$e$. I’d give 100% of the ticket sales to the needy. Maybe that is what those marbles and gold trimmings are really for.